contradictions

I climbed to the top of the world today... only to trip on my shadow
I rode a gallant horse to save you ... only to trample you on my way
I thought I had myself all figured out... only to not recognize my own reflection
I am a contradiction... my own worse enemy - my biggest fan


so... just when I think i'm ok- I find myself spiraling out of control. I like how unavailable guys really attract me lol.. it's like some sort of challenge. Or that is how I see it blindly - the truth is I will get my heart broken and I know it. So why do it? Because I feel unavailable people need loving, too... and I'm just the one to do it. I am used to broken hearts, it's just another day for me. I guess I feel that one day... there will be that one person... that doesn't tear me up. One day someone is going to catch me off guard and love me back. Love me back hard. And on that day... we will make history. lol... what a sappy sappy girl I am. I swear I think about other things than boys... I am a bit deeper than that. I just happen to be boy crazy right now ... sigh. I have a crush like it ain't nobody's business and it's fun and terrible and exhilirating and humiliating and delicious and rancid all at the same time. What a weirdo!