Now THATS cornbread!

I miss country livin. I miss having to drive at least thrity minutes to get anywhere... that forces you to have alone time every day. Here, in the city, everything is so fast. You are always within a few feet of someone else. I feel claustrophobic sometimes. I really enjoy all the people watching and the endless amounts of things to just do around the city, but there was a peace in my heart when I lived in the country. A stillness that I could retreat to when things became hectic in my head. I feel like we get so absorbed in the world around us that we forget to stop and check in with ourselves. How am I feeling today? What is going on in this mind/body of mine? I've decided to take a step back and breathe... no more boys, no more filling every second of my time and NO MORE living outside of myself. I am going to practice reaching within for the answers I seek... for the love I so intensly desire. Blah blah bullshit...lol. Seriously, I'm going to give it a shot. I am tired of being disappointed by other people... I trust too heavily that people will treat other people how they want to be treated. It's that country livin thing. I was taught compassion and honesty. Sigh... I need a breather!